Already late to our destination, I took my time getting into the backseat of my mom’s car. I was about 11-years old and I was on my way to compete in a school spelling bee. I had on an outfit that I wasn’t too keen on (turquoise, khaki and glitter, ugh) and to top it off, I was feeling like complete shit. Nothing new at that time, my mood had been in a reoccurring state of somber for a while. My mother, obviously fed up and confused by it, turned around and with a terrifying look on her face screamed, “What is wrong with you?” I can’t remember what I may have done to instigate my mother’s outburst but I’m sure that typical preadolescent growing pains were a contribution. What I didn’t know was how much anxiety and depression played a part. At the time, I didn’t even know what those words meant. It took me about another 7 years, when things had intensified, to figure it out.
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If I Knew Then What I Know Now
When a situation occurs that reminds me of one that I’ve been in before, my mind usually goes straight to predicting how said situation will turn out. This is solely to further validate my belief that I was born with prophetic or psychic ability. Also, it grants me another possible chance to tell people that I, indeed, was born with prophetic or psychic ability. *winks*
The second thought that rams its way into my mind is how much of the wrong way I would’ve handled said situation just a few short years ago. It’s not that I’m immune to fucking things up every now and again but there are some mistakes that I’m just not making any more. At the very least, I KNOW not to make anymore. The reason why? Well for starters, I barely made it out “alive” the first or few damn times. For two, some things you only need to go through once. You know, just to get it out of your system. Now that they’re all out, I can share. Here’s a quick list of things that I’ve grown to learn from and would’ve done differently had I known what I know today.
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